A New ‘Normal’?

 Well, no. It’s not normal. Life I mean.

My mum asked me today, “when will life feel normal again?” And we came to the conclusion it never will. 

After the funeral, everything kind of settles down, people go back to their lives, and you’re just left to carry on as before, with this huge gaping hole in your life. Everything overwhelms me at the moment. Things I would previously take in my stride, such as an email at work, sends me into a spiral now. I am crippled by indecision, in every aspect of my waking hours. The strangest of things can set me off. I do not like this so-called “new normal”. I do not like it at all. And right now, I can’t see how it’ll will ever get any better.